I’m Not Ready To Forgive You

Forgiveness  can be one of the hardest things to do. Many people say they have forgiven others, but still harbor ill feelings. I have learned over the years that forgiveness is more so for ourselves than it is the other person. We shouldn’t hold on to negative feelings, but forgiveness takes time. Some people just need time think and process before moving forward with forgiveness. However, despite all the warm and fuzzy thoughts that the idea of forgiveness promotes, it’s hardly anyone’s first though.

My upcoming book Stingrays details many situations that may “sting” us. Forgiveness is a stinger that everyone can relate to, regardless of age, race or gender. Here’s a recent poem I wrote about the truth behind forgiveness. Sometimes it’s not as easy as it seems. Lookout for Stingrays to be released in February of next year.

I’m Not Ready To Forgive You 

Perhaps tomorrow when the sun rises

I will be ready to part my lips and utter

Some sort of subtle semblance of a truce

You know I’m never wrong and you’re hardly right

But I can’t let you know

So I’ll keep up the fight

Although my mind is soothed

Although the fire in my chest has cooled

I can’t let you know that your smile

Has made me forget what I was

Even so angry about to begin with

I can’t let it show that

The real reason I’m upset has nothing

To do with you

But that one remark was the last

Piece of bark from the tree of anger

That had been rising up in me all day

And it all yelled timber at the wrong time

So all of my frustrations unfortunately fell on you

I know it’s not right

Know it’s not ok

And I’ll forgive you, I will

In my own time

In my own way

I’m just not ready to go through with it today